Oh Me, Oh My.

I didn't really pick at my skin today. Last night, I went a little crazy by picking at my chest. Grr. I was dehydrated and constipated... what can you expect? I will implement 'my plan/tactics' to conquer this skin picking more fiercely late at night. It prevented me from picking a ton last time, I just didn't use it last night. The sores are there. And they hurt. But that's the price I have to pay for what I did.

And now for a TMI moment:

I woke up this morning at 4am with a different kind of pain. I couldn't sleep and got up out of bed. Saw that my mom was up getting ready for work and so I talked to my her about what I was experiencing. She said it happens to her all the time. She gave me a mild laxative. LOL. I guess I really was constipated... :?

Or it could be kidney stones. That's a possibility... or yeah... whatever else.

End of TMI moment.


Haha!

I went to bed at 1am last night and left for work at 7:20am. That's not really a big deal or anything, but it made me extremely irritable at work even though I'm used to sleeping very little. Weird huh? We got so slammed with morning customers in the short time I was there. I work at a credit union and I was at drive-thru, manning it and manning the front counters. I love running, but I really just felt so pissed at everyone. I was pissed at them for existing and being there (the customers). I started going into panic attack mode, but continued to work and just tried to deal with it as best as I could. Got off work 15 minutes early to make up for staying late this past Saturday. That was nice.

I'm usually really good at handling busy situations. I just don't know what came over me today. I stayed as calm as I could even though I was feeling very 'fight or flight'. I really need to do some more yoga on my days off. I should maybe cut back my intense gym workouts. That may be allotting me too much unfulfilled adrenaline on non-workout days... to the point that I get frustrated easily. I've also cut out soymilk for the time being. I think I may have overdone that.

After work, went to Fresh & Easy to get some veggies, fruits, almonds, and I forget what else. Fresh & Easy wasn't very busy. I think I was able to calm down because of that. At the food sample counter, I talked with a lady who moved here from Scranton, Pennsylvania. She's never heard of or seen The Office. I explained the show to her and its English origin as well as the various international versions out there. She said she couldn't imagine why there would be a hit show based on Scranton -- "It's so dirty there" But that's not all we talked about, the subject of The Office and Dirtville only lasted a minute or two.

Anyway... that store and the weather really helped calm down my anxiety post-work. The weather was breezy and nice even though it was barely under 100 degrees. It was crazy and awesome yo.

Well, enough boring blog stuff. I really think my blogs are getting boring or were boring to begin with. I need to post like, songs and poems on here that I've created. Or something. I'm just really glad very few people read this. And I mean, it's not like it's my official blog. It's my 'I have a serious problem and I'm trying to overcome it' blog. Hence the reason there are very few photos on here. Hmmm... maybe I'll post some someday -- not of dermatillomania... but just funny stuff from my day. It might make me feel better and help me overcome this OCD faster? Maybe...

Ok. It's brownies time. The oven is ringing, telling me they're done. I wanna get to sleep early tonight, hit the gym tomorrow, edit some photos, read about improv, read some plays, conquer overdue chores, play music... it's my day off! Oo baby!

T-minus 4 days until I have to start watching my neighbors house for a month -- watering her gazillion plants, feeding her dog, giving him his medicine, and what not.

Umm... yay?

Well, her backyard is pretty at least. :)