Poritty. (Pores + Gritty)

Ok, this is not good.

I picked at my skin a bit in the places I have been desperately trying to avoid. (Chest, mainly.) Frickinnnnnnn' A!

Today I felt weird. Had a slight upset stomach, felt energetic, dreary, and tired all at once. It's the coffee I'm sure. (Though I do drink liters upon liters of water too.) My skin is also bothering me to NO END. I have cystic acne on my face. Not a ton, but enough to make me cry. What's the deal? Is the coffee causing the pores of my skin to be stupid? My pores feels gritty no matter what lately. AGAIN, I swear it's the coffee. Or the Clinique benzoyl peroxide moisturizer... if so, my skin should be fine in another week. Hopefully...

Geesh, gals who can drink coffee (or whatever), not go all obsessive over their skin, and still maintain a bump-less complexion... I wanna punch them in their damn ugly faces. (Ok, they're not ugly... they just have perfect skin. ...I still hate them.)

Alright, it's just not me. My skin is naturally way the hell sensitive. It burns and tans easily, has semi-large pores. It's just not in my DNA to be fair skinned and young looking, beautiful. I was born to look sun-damaged, wrinkly, trashed, old, ugly. *nervous laugh* Hahaaa... It's alright... I GET IT.

(Thanks, Bozo.)

It still doesn't mean I'm not bothered by it. I have a right to be. Afterall, I am skin OCD like the dickens. (See Dermatillomania)

Ok, agh... I can't continue talking about this. I usually end up in tears every time I blog. To you non-skin-OCD'ers, you can laugh all year if you want. Because you have no such problem and live in lah-dee-dah land with your non-psychotic mind hanging on a golden clothes line for all to marvel and admire. Just know this... I hate you too.

(Hahahahaha!)

Anyway, today was good. Got an ugly haircut, wasted some time, felt numb in my brains, watched some tv, bought my textbooks at the bookstore for school...

OHHH!!!

Can you believe it?? I registered for classes EARLY this time! Almost 2 months early, in fact!

WEEEEEEEEEE!

And I bought my books early too. Something to be proud of. Oh hell yes. That's one great stride for procrastinatingOCDgirlkind. :) (And guys too.)

Alrighty dighty... worked out with my mom tonight too. I really hit the weights. I love lifting the heaviest weights I can lift in slow motion. I love how it kills me.

Goodnight.