You Are Not Alone.

I have kind of picked at my skin a lot lately. I feel ashamed and freed at the same time.

Weird?

I am gonna try harder to stop myself. I don't know what else to do. I've been zoning out during the day lately. Getting bored. Though I have no reason to be.

I'm working on getting to sleep earlier every night. I really want these scabs to go away. I'm hoping getting more sleep will help prevent me from picking at my skin. A better sense of well-being? That's odd. I'm already this self-centered person who takes time out for herself too much. You'd think I'd have enough 'well-being' already...

I've also been trying to get really thin. Don't know if it's working... or... well, it was working. PMS kind of screws things up (gals get really hungry a week before their periodz!). I think my hunger increased though because of my calorie restriction this past week. Mix calorie restriction with PMS and you have double trouble. I got to eat right, but not obsess over it. That's the key. No matter how difficult it is -- no obsessing!! Eat right, but take the focus off of the calorie counter on your iPod Touch. At least I still have a natural love for the gym. I will be working on increasing my yoga and pilates sessions as well this week. Gotta get rid of this yoga and pilates dry spell.

In other news, registered for a class today. Whoopty. Figured out how to make these contact lenses more comfortable at today's eye appointment. Walked 3 miles under an umbrella in the blazing sun to and from said eye appointment (it's cardio, baby!). Filled many water jugs at the store. May be moving in with a friend from theatre this August. Gotta see this house first though before I decide... May look at it tomorrow.





I feel so ambitious, but don't know where to start. I have these dreams -- all my life -- that easily get torn apart. Stick with it, I say to my silly heart.



Goodnight.