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I want to make this blog quick and very clear...

I
PRETTY
MUCH
DID
NOT
PICK
AT
MY
SKIN
TO
DAY!!

Woooooo!

I felt bloated a little today. And when you're at work half the day while feeling bloated... that's never fun. People see you you know. And you feel like everyone is noticing how you fat you look. Ugh.

Haha, I'm sure unless you're like seriously, BOOM... OUT THERE fat... no one really notices a little bloating on a skinny -ish person.

I watched Farrah Fawcets' documentary on her battle with cancer. The documentary ends with her still fighting. But God, what a roller coaster she's going through. Many many 'almost remissions' then all of a sudden it's back. She was on the road to recovery 5 different times before they found out it had come back 5 different times. Gah.

I'm pretty much scared that if I keep picking at my skin, I will get cancer. There is this certain area of my skin I pick at near my chest... and yeah, that's where my concern lies. Picking at my arms? Whatever. I don't care. I mean, I do care. I want the scars to go away. But I'm sure I'll get skin cancer from being baked in the sun too much before cancer due to 'skin picking of the arms' happens.

Wull... anyway. I just gotta think of Fawcet's documentary (even though she got cancer for completely different reasons and it's a completely different kind of cancer)... I gotta think about what I don't want happening too soon. My skin picking affects a high cancer risk area -- I don't want even a slight chance of cancer happening there. As it is already, I am a woman, and women are diagnosed with cancer everyday. Picking in that area puts more odds against me in a crucial way. Bleh. EEK. :/

So yeah... my new motivations to not pick at my skin at all are: a) beautiful skin b) higher confidence c) Fawcet's documentary d) NO CANCER PLEASE!

This may all seem extremely silly to you, but since there is no 'patch' for Dermatillomania (aside from maybe anti-depressants), I'm all for finding reminders not to pick at my skin. And I know people can get cancer from anything... I just want less risk factors in my life for developing the dummy disease.

Gotta try and sleep now. Goo'night.



p.s. this may not look like a quick blog... but I type quick, so THERE.