Electrocute!

Fifth day of pretending I'm skinless...

Today was pretty laid-back; kind of like yesterday.

My hands meandered on my skin a few times. And I attempted to pick at one or two things on my face every once in awhile throughout the day. Other than that, no significant trauma done. I really think I am improving. I'm feeling optimistic about it.

Hung out with my boyfriend in the afternoon/evening today. We did a photo shoot of me in a bathtub full of water and bubbles (my boyfriend's lighting equipment was in the bathroom too; I was so scared it was gonna crash into the water filled tub I was in). I looked a little like Severus Snape because of my haircolor and the way my hair was done. Yup, I looked pretty evil in the photo for sure. Pretty crweepy. I was just helping my boyfriend with his 365 Flickr photo project so I didn't mind looking weird. ;)

Gosh, can't wait to continue my 365 Flickr photo project this summer. It got halted due to other stresses going on. I wanted to decrease as much anxiety as I could. Though I feel pretty bad for stopping. I'm sure I would have ripped up my skin even more if I had continued? Hard to say... :)

Anywho. My boyfriend and I watched Donnie Darko tonight. I'm pretty sure my boyfriend was getting bored with it, and it's not like I didn't expect it (he had me scratching his back and arms --- he never has me do that when we're watching something he's interested in). He's used to action movies and straight comedies that are, I guess, obvious? I really like those kinds of movies too, but I also really like off-the-wall, complex ones. Mysterious ones that make you ponder life and our existence. Plus, it has a creative plot. I don't really like critics, but the critic reviews of the movie are great. The movie uses so many literary devices, it's amazing (e.g. symbolism, allegory, irony, motif, mood, paradox, personification, tragic flaw, and so on). Maybe you have to be someone who has contemplated being an English major to understand/appreciate this movie? Haha, who knows.

I watched the Director's Cut second DVD disc last night and watched the chapter entitled "'They Made Me Do It'-- The Cult of Donnie Darko" and found something interesting. According to the English Donnie Darko fans / theatre-goers, the English understand complex movies better than we Americans do. Well, I tend to agree. This is a not a new concept, but average Americans are used to being spoon fed all that is obvious and put right out there in front of them. Movies that they have to take more time to think about are not worth their time it seems. Not that I'm really any different, but if you wonder why you are one of those people who likes to unravel plots and hidden meanings behind movies... then maybe you're not American? Or your mind is just far too complex for the rest of the Plane Jane, zombie American thinkers?

In any case, we all have different view points and different ideas to offer the world. I can respect that. We only over-analyze what we are naturally drawn to. We seem only willing to stretch our minds, understand, and learn what we somewhat already relate to.

Anyway, enough jibba' jabba'!! (Mr. T anyone?)

I think I should go to bed. Mmmm, that soy ice cream was delish. Thanks boyfriend for driving me to the store to get some on the way home! Grateful I am.

:)



p.s. I'm definitely gonna have my boyfriend scratch my back and arms when we're watching a movie that he cares about deeply. Haha! CHUT UP!